I don't even know where to begin. Things are moving way too fast for me right now, and I feel like I'm about ready to snap and either kill someone or just curl into a ball and hide. And as usual, Raz has placed himself at the center of it. Caring about him drains me, and I think I'm just about dry. Every time I think he's growing up a little and acting like a decent human being (though now that I think about it, from his genetic structure I doubt he could produce live offspring with a human, one of the most important tests of whether two organisms are the same species), he manages to turn around and find some way to be infuriating. One step forward two steps back. If not for him, I think even with the bad business with Ryo, the dark future and everything, I could handle this superhero thing. Right now it's hard to be strong, much less civil.
Anyway, I should talk about what actually happened yesterday, with BAIN and all that, and how it gave me something new to worry about, more dark dreams pressing me flat against the ground, making it hard to breathe.
The battle against the giant robot that BAIN put together out of tank parts and such came down relatively easily once Raz got inside of it. BAIN himself, who resided at the center of it, was a whole other problem. His near indestructibility made it almost impossible to do a damn thing to him. I couldn't even knock him over, much less immobilize him. And then the nonsense with the rocket happened. The warhead-less rocket was programmed to launch, presumably somewhere calculated to cause World War III. Raz wanted to put him in the top of the rocket, ensuring that he'd land in some foreign country and roam free (he later explained how he had a plan -- one that couldn't possibly have been carried out in time), while Jack for some reason decided to put BAIN under the rocket, making sure we'd lose track of him. In the end Glenn and I wound up doing our combination move -- his acceleration to launch my Rider Drill -- through the rocket. My suit normally protects me from motion sickness and loud noises and such, but it was still unlike anything I've experienced before. The pressure wave of the exploding rocket knocked all of my teammates unconscious, leaving me with a choice between (a) doing nothing at all to BAIN, or (b) taking steps to keep my teammates from dying of sunstroke and such. I went with B.
When we regrouped, they recovered relatively quickly. The problem was that BAIN had disappeared, and the satellite that had been tracking him went down somehow. I really didn't want to come crying for help, but I wound up calling my grandfather for help. It turned out that what I thought had merely been interference to my sword had been a hacking attempt, and probably responsible for the business with the satellite. We wound up using it to locate BAIN, and having Raz use his super-strength -- with a few wrestling pointers from Sam -- to break BAIN's internal mechanisms without too much concern about the invulnerable armor. In the end he managed to completely disable BAIN, but it kept staring at me.
When we got back, my grandfather's teleport didn't work at first, and once it did, I was unable to contact him. He also had some odd news about future Ryo's memories being scrambled, remembering things that never happened. So, something else to worry about, something that could change everything.
And then Jack's churchy friend showed up with a mission, and it turns out that the facility they want to raid to free metahumans who are being used as guinea pigs apparently has Raz' mother. Hence Raz is determined to go off half-cocked and run off to Utah, never mind that even Jack hasn't been given the location and such, and that a coordinated raid with actual intelligence will probably do his mother more good than detective work and a smash-and-grab. I can't imagine what it'd be like to know one's mother is being held hostage and experimented on. I mean, I really can't imagine it; at the moment I don't have enough left in me to be capable of that kind of empathy. Am I turning into High School Hikaru again?